Certain songs bring back sudden memories

yay again so I'm so happy you came in my life, but I can't handle it when it comes to the part of missing you I miss you so badly that it kills me inside and it's hard for me cause I don't have place a to pour this shit twisted feeling up except on this blog cause writing it all down on twitter is annoying and cheesy perhaps, okay so I sounds morose but who cares this is my blog well please don't get bored of my glooomyyyyy post cheers :( wish me a beautiful day!

ps everytime I see you I found myself crying idk why I just miss you too much

"Lipstick"

I knew the lipstick won't fix it
But I gotta put my game face on
I wish mascara could mask this
Until all the tears are gone
I gotta paint the pain away
Make like I'm okay
Pretend I don't wanna stay
Act like this ain't killing me
I've tried 1 2, 3 too many times
I've heard 1 2, 3 too many lies

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

I'm sick of looking in the mirror
Cause my mirror sees right through
MAC ain't got enough concealer
To hide how much I miss you
I've gotta cover up my hurt
No more getting burnt
I really need to let you go
Cause my heart can't take no more
I've tried 1 2, 3 too many times
I've heard 1 2, 3 too many lies

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the doorThat I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

It's the hardest role I'll ever have to play
It's the hardest lie I'll ever have to make
To look you in the eye and not break down and cry
When I say goodbye

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

lalalala

xo ♔