Young and Beautiful

helloooo, the internet nowadays is pathetic! it'll go as slow as snail every 7+ pm and I'm having a hard time to just post a post!
So it's May! Can't actually believe that times flies madly! no seriously, I can still imagine my birthday party that we celebrated last year it's still fresh hanging on my mind, and it's already another May! so what's new today? my long lost gone lumix is now back to me, sorry to have deserted you
loving how the vintage result from the photograph

yeaaa have been reading on a book: Steal like an artist! it is a great book! very inspiring and nice btw!

xo ♔

If my love's insanity, why are you my clarity

xo ♔

I'd rather be with you

ssssssssoooooooooo baby it's you you're the one I love you're the one I need hehehehehe
the reason I've been absence for this few days is because I got nothing to write, no actually I got TONS of it but it's okay I could manage it for now, well If I did actually write all of those I guess you must be really going to skip my sad post kaykay

heyy yooo so I gotta post some goals for this month
sup I gotta stay positive no matter what situation that I'm going thruuu
so here it is:

• DIET (TARGET:47KG)
• GOOD GRADES AS ALWAYS
• Happiness
• Could manage my time better cause I'm adding a new course into my schedule

well gotta be busy cause I'm adding one more course to my daily activity and I'm shoreeee that might be really busy, and I might skip gym for that 

sooooo I'm so excited for the upcoming June! I'm stokeeeddd!

well have a great life!

I miss my iPhone that's why(taken AUG 2012)

xo ♔

Certain songs bring back sudden memories

yay again so I'm so happy you came in my life, but I can't handle it when it comes to the part of missing you I miss you so badly that it kills me inside and it's hard for me cause I don't have place a to pour this shit twisted feeling up except on this blog cause writing it all down on twitter is annoying and cheesy perhaps, okay so I sounds morose but who cares this is my blog well please don't get bored of my glooomyyyyy post cheers :( wish me a beautiful day!

ps everytime I see you I found myself crying idk why I just miss you too much

"Lipstick"

I knew the lipstick won't fix it
But I gotta put my game face on
I wish mascara could mask this
Until all the tears are gone
I gotta paint the pain away
Make like I'm okay
Pretend I don't wanna stay
Act like this ain't killing me
I've tried 1 2, 3 too many times
I've heard 1 2, 3 too many lies

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

I'm sick of looking in the mirror
Cause my mirror sees right through
MAC ain't got enough concealer
To hide how much I miss you
I've gotta cover up my hurt
No more getting burnt
I really need to let you go
Cause my heart can't take no more
I've tried 1 2, 3 too many times
I've heard 1 2, 3 too many lies

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the doorThat I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

It's the hardest role I'll ever have to play
It's the hardest lie I'll ever have to make
To look you in the eye and not break down and cry
When I say goodbye

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case

So I gotta pretend that I'm not gonna miss you
Gotta pretend that this is what I wanna do
I gotta pretend when I walk out the door
That I don't love you anymore
Gotta play the part, act like it ain't killing me
Gotta play the part, when you try stopping me
Hide what's written on my face
Dig deep in the makeup case
And cover it with lipstick

lalalala

xo ♔

Chelsea Hotel No2

hello bloggers
so this is how I've been going through my rough weekend, and the result was I lost my iPhone, fuck me right? I was preparing for my piano exam which was just for an ordinary school legality exam, and I was about to go to Sun plaza after the exam, which made me put my pouch inside my tuition bag, well because of some illogical reason we were not allowed to take our cell phone with us during exam, so I had no choice since nobody ever witnessed any of a 'thief' existence in my tuition, I was so carefree and simply put my bag outside the class where I took my exam in. And by the time the lesson had ended I was in rush and didn't check on my bag and just ran through to my car, well this was how the shit happened, because I thought I might miss something then I go through my bag and when I opened my pouch, I can no longer see my iPhone inside, well I didn't panic at the time but well that actually drove me insane cause I thought I might have lost my mind for a while, then I ran again to the 2nd storey the storey which I took my exam and checked on the bench well nothing was there, then I called on my iPhone number, the provider told me that it was switched off, but I kept calling and it kept saying it was switched off, well great how a thief know how to operate my iPhone, that was ridiculous cause all I think this whole time is believing people aren't that heartless enough to do something horrible such as that, the thief didn't steal any of my money, and my blackberry is still with me, Never in a lifetime I would be so carefree again! well I'm still grateful that my blackberry haven't left my side even though I've treated it harshly okay ily!

I wish things will get better and beautiful in advance. Please?

xo ♔

It's funny how heart can be deceiving

where there is desire there is gonna be a flame

where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned

just because it burned doesn't mean you gonna die

you gotta get up and try and try

xo ♔

Forever

I'd play the part of a fool just to be with youuu.
seriously?
okay that was sweet, well let's pray for it if it do exist

so today post is about Grateful

I just wanna thank God for giving me such a loving life, happy life, and even though sometimes things doesn't go as I expected, but I'm grateful of what I already have and hoping for better next time.


Music of the week:

• Forever - The Marvelettes
• Marvin's Room - Drake
• Calling - Sebastian Ingrosso 
• Marry Me - Train

Together we vow that our colors will sparkle the faith

xo ♔

Farewell

Tributes to my Grandfather

R.I.P Grandfather, We missed you, we love you, Sorry for being not good enough, This morning I woke up at 3 am, can't sleep well,  my thoughts were so full, I miss how you used to pick me up after tuition and send me to school, how you used to pick me up when papa & mama were so busy, I missed how you used to tickle me on the feet and you used to teach us children's songs, how you whistle, how you used to play the doll with us and how you used to buy us snacks, how you used to accompany us to sleep, I miss how we used to do some experiment and apply it on your feet, I miss you, It've been 4 and half a year since you were so powerless and sorry that I hadn't been able to keep in touch with you since then, Never thought you would leave so soon, I want to apologize if I haven't been the good granddaughter enough, May you rest in peace, God bless you.





much love

xo ♔

Come What May

Happy White Day,

Seasons may change winter to spring, but I love you until the end of time

Come what may <3

okay. 

nothing

to

read

here

cause 

I'm 

kinda 

sad

but

I 

wish 

everything 

will 

be 

fine

in

no

time 

:)

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

my new baby

random post 

goodnight x

xx ♔

Let your heart hold fast

for this soon shall past :)

hi readers, Piano Royal exam Grade 7 is 7 days to go! I'm pretty anxious, no it's like Very anxious about it, but I'm still hoping and wishing I get distinction as the result of my hardships! well I definitely will :)

I'm tired of the pain :) so I decided to move on even though the progress is only 1% per week or per month well things just need to be clear out right away before I'm getting too attach with it. Tonight I'm getting over you :)

goodnightxx

xo ♔

Not really sure how to live without you

xo ♔

Just Give Me A Reason

Hello readers, Happy Chinese New Year Eve!!!
well Have a great Chinese New Year!

This is so sweet:

Just so you know I get jealous easily, I over think much, I'm insecure, I'm afraid you won't feel the same as the way I am, I'm afraid you'll get bored of me, I'm afraid I can't keep the conversation going, and I'm afraid that you'll leave me,

I wish we're open to both of us.

Right from the start you're worthy to have my heart.

and you're a thief who stole my heart

and I'm willing to be your victim

xo ♔

P!nk - Just Give Me A Reason ft. Nate Ruess

and we can learn to love again

xo ♔

Lana Del Rey - Damn You

I won't cry myself to sleep like a sucker :)

xo ♔

Wish-list

My Wish-list to go:

CHARLOTTE DELLAL 

 BALMAIN

BALMAIN FALL 2012 

Saint Laurent

Leather bag

Alexander McQueen 

Rose Gold Skull Accent

xo ♔

Happy New Year 2013

hello again readers,

Never too late for the New Year greetings right? 

well let's hoping for a great year to begin with

MY RESOLUTION FOR THIS YEAR:

1. Happiness

2. Pass my ielts test with satisfying score 8-9

3. Never ending great times

4. Much love

5. Having someone special that complete my days ❤
6. Less drama
7. Good Grades
8. New Friends
9. More Quality time with family
10. Got Into Central Saint Martins
11. Can finally decide what major should I take between Fashion and Pastry, well I might take both instead.

xo ♔